What up all? So, since there really isn't anyone who reads this, I am just doing this for journal purposes. I am so grateful for hard trials in my life. I cannot tell you how much I have really learned and kept dear to my heart. My whole life I have thought that I am not even worth looking at...that I am this hideous person that no guy will pay any attention to. I just am so hard on myself that I sometimes don't know if there is any positive outcome out there for me to find. Have you ever taken a picture and you realize that it is the most hideous thing out there? And all you want to do is delete it? 

Well, I have had that problem everyday, and sometimes it sucks. But there comes a point in one's life where negative vibes just get so crazy and lame and all you want to do is just listen to them cause it's hard not to...but you can't do that, and I couldn't anymore. EVERYONE has their own unique beauty, and we are all children of God, no matter where we are, what religion we belong to. We are all children  of Him. 

 My brother and two sisters

Sister and her first born

Once I really figured that out I was able to see the beauty in all the world, people, creatures, and especially myself. I started to be less negative about myself and started to see what my qualities actually are. And I have to tell you that I have some quirky qualities, but I wouldn't trade them for anything in this world. That is what makes me so different from the world. My personality truly is my beauty. I may not be the best looking woman in the world. And I am not....NOT AT ALL....but I have to tell you that my personality is one of the best out there and that is what makes me beautiful. I know that I am someone who can make people laugh, feel awkward, feel good about themselves, and love them. I know that the Lord gave me these qualities to lift others up. I know that through Him I can see that I am beautiful in my own way. And though men may over look me, it's okay. It's not that I am a hideous dog, it is because they are not attracted to me. And I am waiting for Mr. Right that loves me for me and recognizes my beauty....but mostly on the inside. 

 Me holding the great arch in Saint Louis

I know that I am a beautiful daughter of God. We are all His children and we are all beautiful and handsome in our own unique ways. I know that He loves us and we all have the opportunity to pray to Him and ask Him to help us with our sadness. What a great way of communication, totally better than any type of smart phone or electronics.